What is my biggest running obstacle? The mental part of it.
I think I have a tape seriously programmed in my head that just constantly repeats: “My legs are dead, this is hard, why is this so hard for me but looks so easy for others, I am not going to make it to my goal distance today, my legs are not co-operating, this sucks, I need to just keep going but it feels like I can’t“.
My Hub was trying to motivate me, he told me to just keep going, he was giving suggestions and here I was just spewing negativity about why it was just not working for me. The worst part was rather than focusing on the fact that I was out there with the wind blasting me, running, pushing through and running for the first time with my husband, I was focusing on everything negative. I did my 2 miles and felt defeated….mentally. I wanted so badly to keep up with him, to have an easy run and to not feel intimidated by the fact that he has been running for a LONG time….but that was my problem…I intimidated myself and it set me up to feel like no matter how well I did, it was not good enough. Would I ever make another person feel that way, NO WAY!!! Why was it so easy to do it to myself? I beat myself up about being tired while running, but I WAS still running…not giving up. I beat myself up for beating myself up….what kind of vicious cycle is this? This is what I need to do….
My goal is not going to be distance or time on Thursday, my goal is going to be to just run. Shut myself off mentally and just be happy to run with my husband. Focus on my biggest supporter’s positive words and eventually they will rub off on me 😉
How do you get past the mental blocks? What distracts you from negativity and gets you into a determination state of mind? How do you avoid dead legs/legs going numb?